Not Dark Yet

Time will say nothing

Shadows are falling and I been here all day

It's too hot to sleep and time is running away

Feel like my soul has turned into steel

I've still got the scars that the sun didn't let me heal

There's not even room enough to be anywhere

It's not dark yet, but it's getting there

Well, I found myself in the middle of a dark wood, mulling over the obscure paths we follow in life, and it occurred to me that my sense of humanity was going down the drain....

Behind every beautiful thing, there's been some kind of pain

I saw this haunted, frightened tree, its trunk smashed by the wind, and, the thought occurred to me that,

I just don't see why I should even care

It's not dark yet, but it's getting there

So, being a little footloose, and free of fantasy, I closed the heavenly door of my private and personal  dwelling, through whose leaded panes the sun was winking goodbye,

Wished the fish in my moat farewell, envying for a moment their gelid blood, their fourth degree turpitude,

And, choosing not on this occasion (that  ontological option - free choice! or is that epistemological?) to extricate my old bicycle from the clutches of the spreading bracken,

I light out for the territory, fearful that some Aunt Sally might try to sivilize (sic) me....

You know, I really can't stand it?  I been there before.....

Well I been to London and I been to gay Paree

I followed the river and I got to the sea

I've been down to the bottom of a whirlpool of lies

I ain't lookin' for nothin' in anyone's eyes

As the dusky gatherings confuse me, and  the wheels fall off and burn, (the seat covers fade and the water moccasins die),

Well, there's too many people

And they're all too hard to please

I take refuge by the fireside of a quiet inn, picking at the warp and weft that hold together our current chaos.....

I feel the spinning of the world, the careering past light and dark so blinding as to take away my inspiration, my very breath....  Outside the bric-a-brac of accumulations sits fixed upon the shelf,

The tin of 'Brasso' out of reach behind the closed glass of time.

Sometimes my burden is more than I can bear

It's not dark yet, but it's getting there

Down the street the dogs are barkin'

And the day is a-gettin' dark

As the night comes in a-fallin'

The dogs'll lose their bark

The tower of St Mildred's looms above me, bells chiming in practiced peals,

Tolling for the searching ones, on their speechless, seeking trail

For the lonesome-hearted lovers with too personal a tale

It is night and the light is dead.  I touch the boards above my face, the claustrophobic walls of seeming gentle life, wishing for a dawn against my will.....

I can't even remember what it was I came here to get away from

Don't even hear the murmur of a prayer

It's not dark yet 

but it's gettin' there.

Not Dark Yet 

Bob Dylan

Time will say nothing but I told you so,

Time only knows the price we have to pay;

If I could tell you I would let you know.

If I Could Tell You

W H Auden (1940)

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Footnote:

Not Dark Yet was recorded in January 1997 and released in September that year on the album Time Out of Mind.

In the Chapter entitled Paul Smith, at the top of page 213 of my 2011 Picador edition of Bret Easton Ellis's 1991 novel American Psycho, I read the following sentences:

Nancy asks, "How's the shad roe at Rafaeli's?" Right now, outside this store, it's not dark yet but it is getting there.

Little Gidding - Zero summer?

Midwinter spring is its own season…..

In 1942 the St Louis born (but after 1927 British subject) poet T S Eliot published his last major poem, Little Gidding, later to be collected as the fourth of his Four Quartets.  

T S Eliot was, I am reminded by one of William Empson's better students (or so G L Webster will have it) A nicer man than you would think....

The title of the poem is the name of a tiny Huntingdonshire (now Cambridgeshire) hamlet acquired by failed Hedge-Fund manager (aka City Banker, investor in the Virginia Company, living in luxury in London) Nicholas Ferrar, in 1626.

Having lost next to everything, Ferrar sought a cheap country property for himself and his family, and founded something like a hippy commune, with his wife and children, mother, brother, and various tabla players and yoga experts.

They restored the diminutive church, created the first Anglican Community, and lived such exemplary lives that no lesser churl than King Charles the First dropped in three times - the third being when fleeing from defeat at the battle of Naseby: those were tricky days.  The government was in disarray; there were divergent factions, powerful men failed to understand the needs of the nations and personalities carried more weight than the public good.  

Nothing like today, then....

When the short day is brightest, with frost and fire,

The brief sun flames the ice, on pond and ditches, 

In windless cold that is the heart’s heat,

Reflecting in a watery mirror

A glare that is blindness in the early afternoon.

If you came this way,

Taking any route, starting from anywhere,

At any time or at any season,

It would always be the same…..

I rolled up, parking deep in snowdrops and silence.  The Ferrars were long gone; Eliot had taken his leave; but the place smouldered with the permafrost of intellect and the light of organic faith.

This is off the beaten track for me: Eliot would not be my first choice best man, nor my funeral orator, though his distinctive voice still rings clear, 

Tolling for the rebel, tolling for the rake

Tolling for the luckless, the abandoned an’ forsaked,

Tolling for the outcast, burnin’ constantly at stake

Or maybe not....

St John's church, Little Gidding, is a beautiful, spiritual place, and everyone should go there, one by one, silently, queuing without hurry, testing their interests, imagining St Peter was at the door....

Here, the intersection of the timeless moment

Is England and nowhere. Never and always.

Eliot visited here from Cambridge in 1936, then went on his way, never to return.  He was unwell.  He was writing the other poems that later became The Four Quartets, standing on the roof of Faber and Faber with a bucket of sand, hoping to extinguish the flames of the Blitz.....  

Second, the conscious impotence of rage

At human folly, and the laceration

Of laughter at what ceases to amuse.

As an American, he must have felt that somehow it wasn't his quarrel, but he went beyond nationalism, and hoped for regeneration, the phoenix from the fire, the retracing of the paths that had once been acceptable.

Thus, love of a country

Begins as attachment to our own field of action

And comes to find that action of little importance

Though never indifferent.

George Herbert, Prebend, at the time of Ferrar, of the church just down the road, chips in his pennyworth here, 

(All my sour sweet days 

I will lament, and love), 

And somehow I am driven to comtemporalise the issues:

We cannot revive old factions

We cannot restore old policies

Or follow an antique drum.

These men, and those who opposed them

And those whom they opposed

Accept the constitution of silence

And are folded in a single party.

What we call the beginning is often the end

And to make an end is to make a beginning.

The end is where we start from.

75 years after the publication of this poem it still makes sense, though perhaps not absolutely the sense intended.  Eliot cannot dictate from beyond the fringes of the years.  The artist is dead.  We have our own experience to superimpose.

And for me, the words impart a message essentially of hope.  Hope that we can survive, and that the rain/reign of fire will not be the end.  Even if we have to migrate to Holland to escape the plague.... Or if we have to deflect a royal fugitive for his and our sake.... There is some virtue in perseverance.  And there may be virtue too in simplification, in reducing our emotional (and other) waste, and retreating into a more spiritual, less material world.

So, while the light fails

On a winter’s afternoon, in a secluded chapel

History is now and England.

And England is not confined to the History of the here and now.  Those who prefer themselves to be historians, are no more statuesque than dust....

We shall not cease from exploration

And the end of all our exploring 

Will be to arrive where we started

And know the place for the first time.

The road....  Whoever we are, our paths lead nowhere.  But the treading of the path has got to be worthwhile....

An’ we gazed upon the chimes of freedom flashing

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