Showing posts with label Winter. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Winter. Show all posts

12 December 2024

Every Grain of Sand

She sells sea shells on the sea shore.....




In the time of my confession, in the hour of my deepest need
When the pool of tears beneath my feet flood every newborn seed
There’s a dyin’ voice within me reaching out somewhere
Toiling in the danger and in the morals of despair

Bob Dylan
Every Grain of Sand
(1981)






December 12th, 2024. This would be my (Amanda's and my) fortieth wedding anniversary, but, hey!  Every day is something.  Every day is someone's birthday, someone's death day.  Time spins on, picking up fluff, leaving stuff behind.  

What you can do?






I set out from home, in Snettisham, and walk over Ken Hill, and across the marsh, filling now with wetness, becoming slowly impassable, to the shore of the Wash.





The sky is heavy, though clouds and azure vie for attention. The tide is well out and there is no one about. I head towards Hunstanton, a six and a half mile walk, to make the best of a winter's day.  

The recent storms have caused havoc amongst the inhabitants of the estuary, and there are hundreds of lost-life forms. Starfish, wrecked and lifeless abound in different configurations:











Their 'little' (what does that say?) lives drowned away by the whipping of the wind and the turmoil of the sea.  

Youthful flatfish, maybe dabs, or immature plaice (help me someone?) turn their right-sided eyes to the sky in premature oblivion:





Razor clams:






Whelks:






Their spent seed-cases:






Crabs:






And urchins:






All lie exhausted and empty on the beach, the impulses and instincts of life extinguished by the very nature that gave them being.

Human intervention makes no difference:






The sky lowers. Drizzle blurs my vision. A flag shrugs in the distance:






Someone wanders into my sightline, another lonely figure in an empty seascape. It could be good to exchange thoughts, but there is some unspoken barrier between us, so I keep moving on:






I hear the ancient footsteps like the motion of the sea
Sometimes I turn, there’s someone there, other times it’s only me
I am hanging in the balance of the reality of man
Like every sparrow falling, like every grain of sand






Forty years ago today something wonderful came to pass, but now it is over and the world spins on. I am so grateful for the love we had, and for all that is still good in this world.

Don't have the inclination to look back on any mistake
Like Cain, I now behold this chain of events that I must break
In the fury of the moment I can see the Master’s hand
In every leaf that trembles, in every grain of sand

Bob Dylan
Every Grain of Sand
Copyright © 1981 by Special Rider Music






Now, please repeat after me, one of my paternal grandfather's favourite tongue twisters:

She sells sea shells on the sea shore......









9 February 2023

Winter into Spring

At the still point of the turning world






It's a cold winter dawn. Thousands of Pink-footed Geese rise from the wastes of The Wash.  The air is full of their sounds - voices wink-winking while their wings strike the resistant air.  You feel for them.  The water, and the air, is cold, though they are well covered.  But families have to rise, and with what seems to be a sense of reluctance, they work their muscles to lift.  They are directed to the sugar beet fields where they will spend the day chomping rapidly on the greens, before heading back at dusk in their ragged skeins to the relative safety of The Wash.

A winter special.




On another day, the chilly air tinged toward dusk, thousands of Knot darken the horizon as the tide seeps in.







This is an astonishing spectacle.  Depending on the tides, and the winds, the time of day and your availability, you can watch while thousands (maybe even tens of) of birds explode into the air, distant ships and trees along the far coast taking no notice.....








Oystercatchers remain grounded, seemingly unperturbed by the whirring mass of Knot above their heads.....







Later in the day, however, I catch a spray of them (the Oystercatchers) heading across the waves in their turn......









Meanwhile, uncertain, skipping the incoming waters, a group of Sanderling (and a trio of Turnstone) gather on the shoreline to-ing and fro-ing like clockwork as the tide advances.








At the same time (correct me if I err) a squabble of Dunlin probe the mud, less worried about the incoming waters....








And occasionally you can see Knot as individuals - their winter plumage not unlike so many others - stabbing at the muddy shallows.  

 






While a pair of Bar-tailed Godwits (hard to believe, but.... a Bar-tailed Godwit sets world record with 13,560km continuous flight from Alaska to southern Australia - is that why they are called God Wits?) strut their stuff in the shiny shallows.....








Then a Curlew, once a common sight but now sadly diminished, whistles past, its colours again the winter camouflage as so many waders, but the downturned beak a giveaway....








Meanwhile, on the sheltered lagoon behind the sea walls a male Teal floats as easy and majestic as a tiny galleon, proud and unsinkable as can be......







As a shady Goldeneye also trims his sails and respects his plimsoll line.....








And a pair of Wigeon coast past in winter harmony.....








On the beach, flitting nervously about, bright and fancy, I espy a Snow Bunting.....








And then there's an eruption of them, springing their energies across the shingles.....







Their flights are excited and trilling, like a shower of notes from something by Liszt or Chopin - too quick to stop, but light and thrilling....








Inland, a male Stonechat, brightly takes off to evade my view......









And on a frosty fencepost a delicate Meadow Pipit poses for me....










Before realising the risk and taking flight










Though I am not the real risk.  Here a Marsh Harrier prepares for his plunge into the reed bed....










And within sight of the golden cockerel wind vane above the spire of St Mary's a Red Kite parades with the remains of some hapless chicken.....










Down to earth, a Little Egret rests on the edge of the marsh.....










And a Grey Heron stalks quietly to find a fishing hole.....










I love the world of birds - constantly uplifting, brilliantly alive. I am not twitcher, no ornithologist, nor even a birder.  I just love to see the disciples of St Francis take the air, and I love to hear their shrill calls, or their mellifluous songs.  I take solace in sharing this planet with so much diversity, so many individual lives, though I worry that today is not tomorrow, and sadly fear that we are gradually destroying what could have once been paradise.

And it is not only for the birds.  I face a gentle red-poll heifer in the frosted field, her look of bemused trust an accusation that I have not used all my power to make things better....









And later, in the shallow sunshine a hare sits softly in thought, unaware of the dangers around the corner.  What a mad world this is.










And as I slowly creep back to my overheated home, to restore my pampered bones with a bath and a glass, a tiny Wren shrieks at me to remember to love the world, and not just myself.....










And then, breaking the air waves, a swan wings over me, majestic in its sinuous agility. If only I could fly like that! If only I could walk like that! If only I could be like that......

I have looked upon those brilliant creatures,
And now my heart is sore.
All's changed since I, hearing at twilight,
The first time on this shore,
The bell-beat of their wings above my head,
Trod with a lighter tread.


William Butler Yeats

The Wild Swans at Coole








The nights are cold, but the sun has been shining, warming the air.  Winter will be gone, though the passage to Spring is never without surprises.  The birds in my garden watch for my scattered feeds, hungry to keep themselves alive, though with gleams of the snowdrops and the rising daffodils the sap is rising in everything.  I have seen Harriers dancing and Kites prancing - it won't be long before the Hares are mad.....



At the still point of the turning world, neither flesh nor fleshless;
Neither from nor towards; at the still point, there the dance is,
But neither arrest nor movement. And do not call it fixity,
Where past and future are gathered. Neither movement from nor towards,
Neither ascent nor decline. Except for the point, the still point,
There would be no dance, and there is only the dance.

Burnt Norton





Let us dance.......





14 March 2022

Springtime for Vladimir

An Old Man's Winter Night




All out of doors looked darkly in at him
Through the thin frost, almost in separate stars,
That gathers on the pane in empty rooms.
What kept his eyes from giving back the gaze
Was the lamp tilted near them in his hand.






What kept him from remembering what it was
That brought him to that creaking room was age.
He stood with barrels round him—at a loss.
And having scared the cellar under him
In clomping there, he scared it once again
In clomping off;—and scared the outer night,
Which has its sounds, familiar, like the roar
Of trees and crack of branches, common things,
But nothing so like beating on a box.






It is almost spring. The crisp whites of snowdrops are edged with ageing ochre, while the yellows of daffodils are reaching their finest shimmering sheens. Jackdaws pirouette in pairs, while ducks waddle in couples, with just a few solitary blades eyeing up the opportunities.

It is almost spring. A short while ago three storms in a row blasted the heaths and muddied the waters, but now softer winds scatter the first blossoms and shake the marram grasses by the shore.





It is almost spring.  But winter is still here.  The darkness has lifted, as the earth tilts our northern end towards the sun, but metaphorical winter is deep. Millions now achingly strive to find shelter and some peace. The fearsome breath of deranged might threatens to rend the tissues of all our lives.  






A light he was to no one but himself
Where now he sat, concerned with he knew what,
A quiet light, and then not even that.


Robert Frost
1874-1963






Winter is so hard, especially when the confection of Christmas cheer passes by the lonely, the sick, the carers for the sick. Two years now we have spent Christmas alone with the cat, none of us speaking, nothing to communicate.  Pandemic....  dementia.... cat got your tongue?






But this is nothing. There are no words to adequately describe the inhumanity of Putin's invasion of Ukraine. Nothing can compare with the violent destruction of civilian homes, the drive to sanctuary of the fearful.  

Yes, we should have seen it coming. Yes, the wars in Syria and Yemen have been similarly brutal and unintelligible, and we have done nothing.  Yes, we are to blame....





But nothing can excuse the vicious lack of care exhibited by our government towards those exhausted, frightened souls who made it as far as Calais, only to be sent on wild goose chases across France to complete endless fragile forms online and then be told to wait.

And all the while a false Prime Minister courts oligarchic lords with Italian castles and others who have funded his rise to power.

Amanda would not approve.....





Recent days have been beautifully springlike here in Norfolk. Only the deafening roar of the Lockheed-Martin F22 Raptors exercising at lower than usual altitudes overhead disturb our blossoming spring. According to my research,  this single-seat, twin-engine fighter features a combination of capabilities that are nothing less than revolutionary. It can soar 10 miles high and fly at supersonic speeds for extended periods of time thanks to an unprecedented capability known as “supercruise,” which propels the jet to speeds greater than Mach 1.5 without the use of afterburners.

It can accelerate quickly and execute razor-sharp turns—even at high speeds. It carries weapons primarily for striking airborne targets, but the Raptor pilot can also attack ground targets from standoff ranges.  And it is equipped with stealth technology that enables it to operate virtually undetected by radar.

Assigned to seven U.S. Air Force bases, the F-22 fleet is ready to be rapidly deployed anywhere in the world it is needed.

But they are just burning oil over our skies just now.....






Yes, it's Springtime for Putin, and Chequers for Johnson, and life goes on as it will, until the last cockroach finds no mate.....






I am glad it is spring here. The light brings much relief and the paths are drier, the air is milder. But what has become of us despite these lovely days?  I despair of our government - so what's new? But after Salisbury and after Alexander Litvinenko, what hope is there that absolute power does not corrupt?  The world has seen despots and tyrants and still sees them.....  

What hope is there for Alexei Anatolievich Navalny? Poisoned on August 20th 2020, imprisoned in Russia in February 2021, and tried again on 24th February 2022, when he condemned the Russian invasion of Ukraine and asked the court to include his statement to the trial's protocol.  He said that it would lead to a huge number of victims, destroyed futures, and the continuation of this line of impoverishment of the citizens of Russia. He called the war a distraction to the population to, divert their attention from problems that exist inside the country.....






Springtime for Putin and the KGB
The Soviet Union is happy and gay
We're marching to a faster pace
Look out! Here comes the master race 


I am glad that Amanda understands nothing of this. I understand little enough, and, with Robert Frost's Old Man in mind, I find myself going downstairs again wondering what I have forgotten.  

But when will we learn?






Darkness at the break of noon
Shadows even the silver spoon
The handmade blade, the child’s balloon
Eclipses both the sun and moon
To understand you know too soon
There is no sense in trying

Pointed threats, they bluff with scorn
Suicide remarks are torn
From the fool’s gold mouthpiece the hollow horn
Plays wasted words, proves to warn
That he not busy being born is busy dying




Although the masters make the rules
For the wise men and the fools
I got nothing, Ma, to live up to


It's Alright, Ma (I'm Only Bleeding)

Bob Dylan
1965